This is really a wonderful and touching story. It takes an incredible amount of internal fortitude to reveal your insecurities and, even moreso, how you cope with them and how they affect you. Thank you for sharing those moments.
Robert makes a good point about context, so I’ll add that the key element of the experience of drinking those brunellos was being near the source. When I got back to the States I read a lot about wine, and tried wine from all over. (All the French wine I own is from around that time period.) That’s typical - I tend to take up a subject, exhaust my interest, and move on to something else. I might’ve done the same with wine, except my wife proposed a trip to Napa. And I realized on that trip that what really draws me to wine is a sense of place. Not in the “terroir” sense, but an actual place, or maybe the memory of it. I’m not literally thinking about Napa or Tuscany when I’m drinking cabernet or sangiovese (although sometimes I do). It’s more indirect, but it’s real to me. So, like a lot of folks here, I might find some day that I like Burgundy best. But not until I’ve actually been there.
I get what you mean and feel very similar. Some wines make me completely aware of the time and place. People talk about the importance of stopping to smell the roses and appreciating moments in your life, and some wines, for me, are those moments. It’s a very Proustian idea of memory - they encapsulate a moment and I end up with a memory where the wine and the time and place are all all intertwined. In that sense, the wines, like the moment, are perfect.
I think it was in '58-60 we starting hanging with Michael Goldstein now of Park Ave W&L and getting invited to MANY Austin Nichlos TN’s an auctions in the early '60’s. Tasting wines you would not believe. We graduated from Hearty Burg to serious wine. Invited to a Martin Ray event I had a '47 Chard, mid '50’s Cab and PN, strangely as I remember from champagne bottles and that did it for me.